Shawn bought us a PS3 over the weekend, as well as a wireless router, and it finally feels like we're not just faking it as adults. I know, that's lame. But I can get online in any room of my house, I can stream my Netflix to the tv, which makes it feel like we have more than 10 channels to chose from, and Shawn feels like he has something nice, which is, sadly, a rarity for him these days.
I spent the weekend baking Christmas cookies with Megan, and managed not to eat too many of them in the process. Baby enjoyed the few I did have, though.
Tonight I must finish my Christmas shopping. Shawn is probably going to shop for the kids today, if he gets up in time to take me to work so he can use the car. It's so fun to have kids to shop for this year. And next year, I will have my kid!
You know, I've been hitting the place in this pregnancy in which I keep having feelings of, what the heck am I doing? Perhaps it's all finally settling in. I'm going to have an actual child to care for, not just a baby to play with. I don't doubt my ability, but it's just a big reality starting to sink in.
In any event, I hope to also hit the gym tonight for the first time in several weeks. I signed up again last week, and I just didn't have any time to myself after Wednesday night.
Also, I dreamed about Tim McGraw last night. Explain.
My darling daughter, your feelings are so normal. I remember looking at your itsy bitsy self laying in your bassinet (a wicker laundry basket Grandma Maclean fixed up with a pillow and blankets), hours after you were born and after the midwife and everyone else (except your dad, of course), thinking, "Why did they leave me alone with this baby? Don't they understand the incredible responsibility they've left me with???"
ReplyDeleteDon't drive yourself crazy with the thoughts you are having. Keep thinking of Tim McGraw, or whatever hunk du jour you please.